Lainey I will pray for you. The Lord cannot blame you for wanting to work it out. Sometimes He brings us to a place just to open our eyes and see for ourselves the truth, though it may not be easy. I know the Lord has a plan for you and your son, even for your sons father (though he may not be ready to accept it), but He has good plans for you. Please read Jeremiah 29:11-14. And remember, your son is your number one mission field, to raise him up to follow Christ. I wish I could be there to comfort you and give you a hug in your time of need, but even better the Lord is with you. May His spirit fill you, comfort and peace overcome you. I pray for His wisdom to lead you in this situation. If you ever become desperate or need to get away, make sure you have a good church to go to. Calvary Chapels are great. Keep in prayer and stay in the word, seek Christ. If the Lord wants you to go back home to your friends and family then do it, do whatever He wills. God bless.
4 Years Ago