DeborahSo, I opened up about this with some sisters at my school. One of them gave me a sermon to listen to and after hearing it all of the enemies lies kept
playing in my head. The voice of the guy who told me I was gay was the loudest so I called my sis for prayer. After she prayed with me I kept hearing God saying youre beautifully and wonderfully made and how much He loved me.Hi,
This is Deborah (from the C28 prayer board). Thank you so much for your encouragement. I have an update. So, I opened up about this with some sisters at my school. One of them gave me a sermon to listen to and after hearing it all of the enemies lies kept
playing in my head. The voice of the guy who told me I was gay was the loudest so I called my sis for prayer. After she prayed with me I kept hearing God saying youre beautifully and wonderfully made and how much He loved me. Recently, I was able to share my feelings with this guy who I have liked for a while. God is definitely healing me from the scars that guys words left.
Thank you for your prayers!answered 3 Years AgoWrite a prayer for this personShareOriginal Prayer Request (posted 3 Years Ago):Hi Fam, okay this time I need prayer for complete deliverance. Growing up I really hated the way I looked. I used to wear big clothes because I thought they hid my body. So as you can tell my self-esteem was extremely low. Although I had all of those issues and added to that I was shy, I still had friends but I never had guy friends. For a while I felt more comfortable around girls because I knew they didnt care about how I looked. I always felt that I needed to be pretty to be friends with a guy or to have them like me. That didnt stop me from having crushes but in my mind I felt like no one would ever like me. Needless to say I have grown from that tremendously but I still feel "haunted" in a sense by the way I used to feel and the way I used to think. Something that I have carried with me a long time was what this guy told me in HS. He said that I must be a "dyke" (meaning homosexual) bc I didnt have a boyfriend (or something to that nature). I had heard that term before but didnt really think about it until he said it in that way. It really upset me but I started feeling like maybe he was right. Ever since that day Ive lived in fear that maybe hes right. Since then I have tried my bestt to stay away from close girl relationships and I fear being around homosexual women. In my mind I constantly hear that guy and I feel paranoid, like every one thinks Im that way or that I may be. I know this sounds crazy but please pray that God delivers me from these thoughts and from homosexuality if that spirit is in me. Thanks in advance!
GloriselThe first time someone said I was a homosexual was on the 10nth grade... she said it cuz I didnt want to have a boyfriend until I was at least 18 cuz I didnt find a purpose in having relationships with different guys who are not "marriage material"... I want to wait for the right one! the God-given one! Im currently 23 and still single; no one doubts my sexuality now and all say that Ive made the right choice by abstaining myself from being in relationships of that kind (I havent suffered lots of stuff and stress cuz of this)... I have no doubt in my mind that I want a man in my life... So, dont give a thought to what this guy said! God didnt give us a spirit of fear; so dont fear his words! Those words are not in accordance to Scripture and therefore are not from God; if they are not from God they have no power over you; as long as you dont let them have it! Remember, "i am fearfully and wonderfully made" psalm 139:14 ((this helps me a lot every time i face self-esteem issues)) God made you unique and special and beautiful! Never doubt yourself and never doubt your purpose; never doubt the wonderful work God has done! Be encouraged! Ill pray for you! Be blessed! Again, you can add me on fb (Glorisel Gonzalez or send me an email email@example.com) Smile, you are beautiful! Much love in Christ!3 Years Ago